Get out of your own way!

Lately I’ve had all of these grand plans brewing.  I’ve been focussing a lot on aligning with what my soul is here to do.  The way I see it, that is real reason I’m here.  The rest is just the icing on the cake.  I mean the soul is what comes with you from life to life, it’s the essence of who you are.  It knows all about you and why you came to live this time around.  So from my perspective, being in line with my own soul is the most important thing I can do.  It is quite literally the reason that I came.

So, I’ve been focusing on that, and making all of these grand plans.  I’ve been plotting moves (in location), praying for guidance , and locking on to the expanded visions that have been coming my way.  

This has all been wonderful, but last night I had a dream that revealed the underside of all of this plotting and planning.  Even though the dream’s message was a bit startling, when I finally grocked what it meant I felt a complete sense of peace.  

In a nut shell, the events of the dream, and more exactly what I said in the dream, revealed to me that in truth, I had no idea what I was doing!  In the dream I was going snowboarding.  But instead of down a mountain I was shot out directly into the ocean.  I suddenly found myself swimming in the waves with my snowboard strapped on to my feet- totally baffled.  

There was a woman wading next to me.  She had a mildly amused expression on her face, and she was just sort of watching me to see what I would do.  Totally shocked at being surrounded by the heavy ocean (and not air) I tried a few times to lift myself and my snowboard out of the water- to sort of launch myself like a water skier so that I could ride on top of the waves.  I could see a few people out in front of me, riding the waves on their snowboards in this water skier type fashion (but without a boat).  But as I tried to get on top of the water I just couldn’t.  It was just too heavy.

I turned to the woman next to me and said, “I don’t know if I can do this.  I have absolutely no idea how to launch.”  Oddly enough, I didn’t feel trapped or even frustrated by the situation.  I just felt totally baffled.  It was just like this “Holy Cow, I have no idea what I’m doing!” moment, and it felt a little humorous.

When I woke up this morning and started writing down the dream I realized, that quote right there was what it was all about.  For all of my grand plans and dreaming, I really had no idea how to launch!  In truth I had no idea how to get from where I was in the water, to riding the waves.  I could obviously see that it was possible, and I suppose I was in the right place to make it happen (the ocean) but the “how” remained totally mysterious.

As I’ve been reviewing the dream this morning and afternoon, what has come to me more than anything else is this notion of getting out of your own way.  

Looking back I have the sense that the woman wading next to me knew just how to get me out of the water and on top of the waves.  But she was just sitting there watching me struggle and try to go at it alone.  After all I hadn’t asked for help.  It was amusing to her.  Of course, what I was attempting was completely impossible.  I couldn’t just launch myself and my snowboard out onto to the top of the ocean alone.  I needed help.  

Sitting with my morning cup of cocoa later writing the whole thing down I felt such a sense of peace come over me when I came to the simple realization that I had no idea what I was doing!  It was sort of like a revelation that allowed me to step back and breathe.  The silence that came from me doing this felt profoundly opening.  Like suddenly I wasn’t sitting there listening to my own self struggle in the water anymore.  The absence of this created a vacuum of silence which was obviously the only real vehicle for a solution.  Stop struggling, stop trying to figure everything out, just listen.  Give over to Spirit, make space.  And above all, ask for help!

So, my blessing today is just that, “Get out of your own way!”  Stop struggling and trying.  Make space for the silence of solutions, the true and unfathomable strength of Spirit, and the effortless help that can come if you’ll only ask for help. 

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